Mammy

Dear (A)
Today I was reading my many ,many emails that I received and as I sat waiting for Spirit to guide me your email opened without me even clicking on it. I am smiling as I know Spirit would never let you down and they have their ways in just showing me signs.
Your message was so strong I began to feel your complete loss. Firstly I want to remind you that you are a wonderful unique human being with a heart the size of a field. I know this as you have had the beautiful experience of Healing from Spirit and I know you know there touch. So I begin with this to lose a child is the hardest thing any parent can go through. Being faced with the unanswered life questions of what did I do? Could I have been the cause? Am I just meant to suffer? these questions are real yet soul destroying and I feel that you need to know that even though your heart may feel like its in the pit of your stomach you my friend are most definitely not a bad person, nor are you here to endure your life. Yes we have all had a part in writing our own blueprints but you are not cursed by any means.
In fact your have been blessed by the Heavens to have two little boys that walk with you every single day of your life. They in fact are the ones that push mammy forward to get out of bed, even though you'd rather die I feel your heart my friend I know and see very clearly whether you realise this or not. You will be pregnant again and your babies will be coming back. If you only knew how very special you are. Your partner see's this the same way Spirit does. You both have been together before too. Twin flames always find there way back home remember that you chose each other. For life's eternity both of you shall walk together. Not many people have this bond so treasure it and more.
Your are to be blessed again.... I have every faith in the lads above now let them do the work. Be kind to yourself be gentle, know you are worth loving. And know that what you placed on a grave was received with thanks. But they stood with you and your partner and I have to say the just love to blow balloons :-) They love their Mammy and Daddy they want to say HELLO
Footballs and Balloons little bows and candles they surround you with the most beautiful light and they have been making quite a bit of noise recently around 9ish at night. Your grandmother likes to play with your lights in the living room and drive your dog nuts aswell. What a huge amount of love you have coming from the Heavens and you both deserve and will be happy.
May you rest easy in the knowledge that Aaron and Jaime are with you.And Marie, Kevin and Noel.
Love as always my friend
Fiona xxx