When Things Fall Apart

Dear Anon
In our lives we sometimes have brief moments that make us feel so complete and safe. It is when that special person is gone that we lose a sense of oneness with everything around us. The incomplete feeling that you have and feel, is that when a true love stops being there for you that leaves you feeling isolated and alone like a part of you has also left. When a relationship breaks down there is nothing that anyone can really say to make you feel better. Its the feeling that there is a huge part of you is missing your other half.
The fact is that a heavy heart is real to miss someone is real, People go through life's ups and downs and every relationship has it's flaws. As I have yet to meet a couple who hasn't had their fair share of problems. The sad thing is when you look at what has caused the stress within your home you realise it was material. It's not emotional and yet it cause's strife and heartache in every way shape and form. Like a rotten weed that needs to be cut at the root and left to die. Unfortunately the one's you love more than life itself they end up on the end of this very static energy that loves nothing more but to wrench your life apart. Leaving not only you feeling isolated but also each of those you love.
There is nobody in the world that wakes up and decides today I will sabotage my life. You didn't do this on purpose Anon, it seemed to be the build up of everything and trying to stay strong for the love of your life you forgot to re-charge your own energy. It is okay to say help. It is normal to feel the way you feel. I am pretty sure that your partner feels the very same way. As women sometimes we can be so very strong and then when life throws the curve ball at you instead of seeing it coming we get clocked on the head and are left in this daze like energy that really doesn't feel normal at all. Stop being so hard on yourself. You have been through hell and back and you are internally very strong.  Panic has no place in your life . Your partner knows deep down that you love him and at the moment he too is hurt.
It doesn't mean that your lives together is over. Have you ever thought what if this has happened to make both of you stronger? What if this happened to show you exactly what really matters to both of you. Love doesn't die it doesn't just go away in a blink of an eye. It's very essence still lives and breaths through both of you.
Life can be so hard on us but we can be even harder on ourselves. We are our biggest judge and jury. The darkness that you feel is very real indeed, You have the power to change this and so does your partner to put everything else aside and think only of the both of you my guess is that your love is still very strong. Sometimes when drastic things happen though it can be hard to get past the hurt. But if you truly love this person you will move mountains and so will he to be with only you. That's what love is anon. It is when all the crap and heartache and your life feels like its in bits on the floor. It is only then you see the real love. Stop focusing on the past. Both parties seem to have hurt each other but it was not out of malice. You have always loved this man and I feel you have and are the only one for him. I am sensing there could be a move of house a fresh new beginning. Together you are strong separate the ego and listen to your heart. Know that men deal with emotions very differently to us and the feel there male strength has been wounded in many ways it has but if you mean as much as they said to them then life will help both of you. Three Angels are here to say You have a gift of being a parent and know that the Angels watch over your Children at this time your partner is also a wonderful Dad. The Angel of families is also very strong saying that a happy change is coming for your family. And lastly A happy move to a new home and place of employment is coming.
Anon please know that when things fall apart it is not of either persons fault. Know that when the old is removed and and the reminants of your life seems to be on the floor. Your love for each other still holds strong. Have Faith that everything will be okay and I am sure that he loves and misses you too.
Stay Strong
Love and blessings
Fiona x