Your past doesn't rule your Future

Dear J.H
On reading your email i can feel that you seem to be carrying burdens from the past and sensing that you have some unfinished business to attend to but the key to this is one step at a time. The overwhelming feeling of trying to move forward yet old emotions are a bit like our demons every now and then they will come at us like a freight train. Taking us completely off our path. I am also sensing that not just your past relationship but the ones before seemed to form a pattern of addiction and old habits .
We cannot fix anyone only ourselves we have no power in what other people do in their lives. But you can pray for them and send them Healing. The power of meditation will be of great help to you in your daily life you need to take some time out each day just to sit and breath. By doing this you are allowing the breath which is life to work its natural healing within you. Try this for five mins each day and then you will find that your time will get longer and each day you will feel freedom. Freedom of guilt that has no purpose in your life at this moment.
I suggest that you find someone that you can fully trust to speak with who will help you to look outside this box of emotions so that you feel safe. You do have a soul connection with your ex partner and i don't feel that this relationship is quite over i sense that there is a lot of guilt games that have been played . But when healing occurs it can bring the most amazing outcomes. Why do i see Jersey? a teenager with beautiful eyes and a younger brother ? There will be a lot of going down memory lane for you but the first amends that you must make is amends to you!
Know that the future is not as bleak as you allow it to show itself to you. The change of a job will follow quite soon but i am sensing you already know the man that will be offering it to you.
J.H please know that your guides know how you have struggled and they want you to stop giving yourself this quiet time will allow them to move closer to you and as the healing energy occurs they will be able to show you the way ahead. People places and things in our lives sometimes take some time in getting over see them as pebbles on your path you can either pick them up and carry their burdens also or you can keep walking forward without guilt.
I hope this helps in some small way know that life smiles on you this day and everyday in the future.
Blessings of light and Healing
Fiona xxx